A Memoir · New Harbinger Publications · 2026

The Gift of a
Broken Heart

How Our Grief Can Connect Us

We don't choose grief. But it comes for everyone, eventually. And, it can open our hearts.

Foreword by Shelly Tygielski  ·  Afterword by Barry Boyce

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The Gift of a Broken Heart — Bryan Welch
About the Book

A broken heart
opened to love.


"This is not a book about getting over grief. It is a book about what grief can make of you if you let it."

In The Gift of a Broken Heart, Bryan Welch — business executive, farmer, and longtime Buddhist — writes with devastating honesty about the years after losing his 25-year-old son to addiction.

What emerged from that loss was not healing in the traditional sense. It was something stranger and more profound: an opening of the heart.

As Welch moves through the wreckage of parental grief, something unexpected happens. His vulnerability generates a new sense of warmth. His pain opens a gateway to compassion—for others, for himself, for the strangers he passes on the street. This, as much as the loss itself, becomes his son's legacy.

Before his son died, Welch had built careful narratives to keep suffering at a distance. Grief tore all of that down. What it left behind was an unexpected spaciousness: the freedom to feel without the exhausting work of pretending.

With a foreword by Shelly Tygielski and praise from Tara Brach, Judith Lief, and David Nichtern, this book is for anyone who is grieving, or will grieve one day soon — which is to say, almost everyone.


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Noah Welch Noah Welch with a child
Noah Welch · 1987–2013
"Our children are the dearest people in our lives. When your child dies of addiction, the raw loss of a beloved person combines with the knowledge that you might have been culpable — in any number of ways — for their illness and death."

Bryan Welch lost his son Noah to addiction in 2013. Noah was 25 years old.

This book is his story, and Noah's legacy.

From the pages

I will always live in a state of grief. My heart will stay broken. And I think, in many ways, that my life has been improved by that. I think I have been improved by that.

From the book

When grief tore down the boundaries I'd been maintaining, I was both exposed and liberated — liberated to feel what I was feeling, because I didn't have the strength to do otherwise. And gradually I found I wanted to hold on to that new freedom.

From the book

My heart was broken. I discovered that my heart had also, to some degree, been opened. Among the things swept away by grief were the many narratives I had used to reassure myself that I was protected from suffering.

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Watch & Listen

Hear from Bryan

Bryan on the book, the grief, and why he wrote it.

Introduction

Introducing The Gift of a Broken Heart

About the Book

Bryan Welch on Writing This Book

A Tip from the Book

A Tip from The Gift of a Broken Heart

As seen on social

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This short video captures the heart of the book — and has been reaching readers across Facebook, Instagram, and Substack.

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Insights from Bryan

Essays on Grief, Joy,
and Connection

Bryan writes regularly from his Kansas farm, about the themes in the book—Buddhist practice, open-hearted leadership and the hard-earned wisdom of loss.

Essay

Joy With Sadness at Christmas

"I practice being sad. I think a portion of sadness in my view makes me more empathetic and compassionate. The spiritual leaders I most admire all have that touch of sadness they carry with them."

Essay

Empathy and Compassion

"Empathy is a gift. Compassion is a decision. In opening ourselves to painful empathy and engaging with suffering to be helpful, the pain is somehow relieved — and transformed into something lasting."

Essay

The Blessings of Sadness

"Grant your blessings so that I give birth to deep sadness." A traditional Buddhist prayer. On the farm, surrounded by birth, life, and death, Bryan finds that honoring sadness opens the door to genuine joy.

Essay

Why Do We Cry?

"Before his son died, Bryan seldom cried. After, he cried several times a day for years. Now, twelve years later, he cries at least once a day — not just for his son, but over any significant grief."

Essay

Spaciousness and Joy

"Big Grief exhausted me. When the boundaries I'd been maintaining collapsed, I had a strange new sensation: spaciousness. To think. To feel. To hurt. It wasn't welcome, exactly, but it wasn't unpleasant."

Essay

False Narratives

"Before I encountered Big Grief, I believed I could make my world less sad than other people's. I created hundreds of little stories about my exceptionalism. The effort was both exhausting and uncompassionate."

About the Author

Bryan Welch



Bryan Welch is a business executive, writer, farmer, and entrepreneur whose life has been shaped by both the world of commerce and the disciplines of contemplative practice.

For nineteen years he ran Ogden Publications — home to Mother Earth News, Utne Reader, and Mother Earth Living. He went on to found B The Change Media and serve as CEO of Mindful Communications and Foster Care Technologies.

As a Buddhist, Welch is a longtime meditator and advocate for mindfulness. He and his wife Carolyn raise organic, grass-fed cattle, sheep, and goats on their farm near Lawrence, Kansas — and it is there, among the lambs and the loss, that the book was written.

He holds a master's degree from Harvard University, where he studied at the Kennedy School of Government and Harvard Business School. The Gift of a Broken Heart is his second book, following the award-winning Beautiful & Abundant: Building the World We Want (2011).

Bryan Welch on his Kansas farm

Career

CEO, 19 Years

Ogden Publications / Mother Earth News

Founder & CEO

B The Change Media

CEO

Mindful Communications

Co-CEO

Silk Grass Holdings, Belize

Master's Degree

Harvard University / Kennedy School

Author

Beautiful & Abundant (2011)

Praise

What Readers Are Saying


"With searing honesty and tenderness, The Gift of a Broken Heart invites us into the sacred ground of grief, where compassion deepens and love is revealed to be boundless. Bryan Welch's words are a true offering — a light in the darkness, a companion for the journey."

Tara Brach, PhD

Author of Radical Acceptance and Radical Compassion

"Welch's memoir is a tender account of a parent's worst nightmare: seeing a beloved child succumb to addiction and death. Bryan shares his self-doubts, regrets, and aching heart at this tragic loss and how he eventually found meaning — and even came to treasure that broken-heartedness."

Judith Lief

Buddhist teacher, author of Making Friends with Death

"With humility, grace, and honesty, Bryan brings us one of the most important realizations we can make: grief is always with us, but it is not an obstacle to joy. This book tells Bryan's own powerful story with clarity and beauty, and takes us along on his path toward a more compassionate life."

David Nichtern

Author of Awakening from the Daydream

"Here, Bryan offers us a poetry of profound grief that is both unbearable and majestic — a love and loneliness that is noble, gentle, and brave. Take your time with this story. Drink easy and deep as you journey into the fullest depth of your human heart."

Michael Carroll

Buddhist teacher, author of Awake at Work

"In The Gift of a Broken Heart, Bryan Welch shares how his grief shaped and expanded his heart, reminding us of the possibility for deeper connection and meaning when we are willing to fully feel even the most painful emotions."

Sharon Salzberg

Author of Lovingkindness and Real Life

"Grief is the burden the universe gives us in order to liberate us from the burdens we put on ourselves. Bryan is one of the most powerful voices I have read in showing us this great gift. Everyone should read this book — particularly those interested in leading with an open heart."

Reader Review

Amazon ★★★★★

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